My Brain Is Making Changes.

Every once in a while, my brain starts picking on me. It calls me names like 'lazy,' 'lack-a-daisy,' 'sloth.' It'll tell me I could be more, how TV is an addictive substance, that I'm letting my brain slip, and how my health is deteriorating because I'm acting like a lazy daisy sook. The worse part is it's right. I've gotten lazy.


I hate being smacked around by my brain. It's getting bolder. I fully expect it to leap out, backhand me, & scoot away on a segway if I keep pissing it off. So I'm making some pretty big changes with my brain doing it's best Mickey Goldmill impression. Just needs it's own tiny stocking cap. 


BIG OL' CHANGES


1. No Dairy - Most dairy makes me viciously sick. Most cheese, ice cream, & all milk makes me ill. Considering I LOVE cheese and put it on almost every dish I make, I may go into a lack-o-cheese depression. Fortunately, it seems I can still have frozen yogurt. That's a plus.


2. Workout Everyday - No matter how tired/lazy/sick/busy I get, I'm going to spend a minimum of 5 minutes doing push-ups, jumping jacks, or whatever exercises I can think of. It's not a real drastic change, & that's why I think it'll work. If I dedicate an hour, I get intimidated. But 5 minutes is an opponent that's more my size. Once I can whip 5 minutes like a rented mule, I'll take on more aggressive opponents like 7 minutes. 


3. De-Stress Often -  I work myself up over little things. It needs to be managed or it will kill me. Literally. Still trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. Well, not exactly. I KNOW what I WANT to do, but I can't afford to go back to college. Right now, I'm a school bus driver going to votech [yuck] to become a Pharmacy Tech. I hate my back up plans, but they'll pay the bills. To quote Jayne, "If wishes were horses, we'd all be eating steak." I've just got to keep breathing and keep praying. And remember: 

"The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time." 

- Abraham Lincoln

4. Craft the Crap Out of Everything - a.k.a. multitask like mad. If I'm sitting at the TV, origami. If I'm listening to something on the computer or radio, sew. Reading on my future kindle (birthday is soon), I'd crochet. No more idle hands. I've got a long list of costumes, outfits, Christmas presents I've been wanting to make. No more excuses. I'll craft the crap out of everything!! That reminds me I need more yarn.


Not sure how Husband will like these changes. He loves cheese & knows how attached I am to my brain.


Too bad  :D


~misfoijd

Crap-tastic

Started & ended my CNA class today. Remember I said I was going for a CNA so I could be an AUA or a Pharmacy Tech? I was told you had to get a CNA before pursuing the aforementioned by the secretary of the votech. I've decided that pharmacy tech would be smarter. CNAs/AUAs need strong backs to move people. My back has been shot and I get sick easily, so just seems smarter to go that way of the pharm tech.

Showed up for class today at 7:30am. Was talking to people, asking them what they were going to do with the CNA. When the talk shifted to my direction, I told them I was trying for pharmacy technician. Faces of confusion were what I got. Something wasn't right, so after lunch -  I asked a teacher if I needed this class to be a pharmacy technician. She didn't think so, but walked off to find answers.

Upon her return, she said I should go double check with the secretaries up front because everything & everyone was saying NO CNA NEEDED to become a pharmacy tech. I went up to talk to the front desk, and spoke with same secretary who told me I HAD to take CNA.  She tells me that I didn't need to take the CNA course to be a pharmacy tech.

*sigh*

So now I'm unenrolled in CNA& enrolled in pharmacy tech (assuming the lady is right this time). Glad I found out when I could get a refund on the fee (can only do it on the first day of class). Happy that I can go straight into pharmacy tech.

But I'm still pissy about paying $90 for books I can't return (will have to sell them at a far reduced price) when it could have been avoided if particular people understood how to use their brain.

~ misfoijd

I Confuse Myself

To the very confused people in my life, here's an update.

No matter how much I want to go back to college, I can't do it. I could not bear the thought of putting Husband & I into such tremendous debt for another degree (especially since my last one flopped). So going for a doctorate is out of the question. It saddens me, but I have to do what's best.

The plan is as follows:

• Take advantage of free classes at community college (I got lucky)
• Go for my CNA
• Then go for AUA
• If there's still free money being given, I'll take whatever course I can.

I'm planning on being so certified that people can't help but want to hire me... hopefully.

~misfoijd

We Make Our Own Destiny

I'm getting tired of feeling pegged to the bottom of the job well. Thought I would be done clawing and scraping to get a job when I got my bachelors. Wound up spending 2 years applying for jobs with my degree with nothing but countless "we've chosen someone else" letters and emails to show for it. During said time, I have worked whatever job I could get at whatever pay available. All the while hoping.

Hope can be depressing when you realize it's all you're clinging to to get a job. No one likes who you intern with. No one likes your job history. No one wants to train you. No one gives a flying jar of molasses if you graduated early or have a good GPA. And it doesn't help when reminded "degrees lose value after 2 years." In spite of these facts, I hoped.

And you know what? SCREW THAT!! I will no longer base my hopes on that piece of paper! I choose to overcome this pit and if I need a ladder of certifications to do it, I will!!

~misfoijd

One Thing I Miss....

We were sitting in rush hour traffic, Boss and I. Barely moving, Boss was cussing about how this and that vehicle has passed him when he turned to me stating: Man, I bet this was worse in a school bus.

My Response:

Not really. Yes it would be hot. Yes it would be noisy, but as far as traffic went it wasn't really bad. Mostly because I had one thing the other drivers didn't: Hostages. (This made Boss chuckle.)

Frankly, most people treat a bus better than a semi. People won't let a semi over, but give wide berth to a school bus. They're both huge vehicles that could MAKE you move out of sheer fear of having your auto annihilated. There's just one major difference: there are hostages.

We can have up to 72 kids on board. If you hit me, that can be up to 72 lawsuits ranging anywhere from psychological trauma to vehicular manslaughter. Good luck winning the case against a flock of mourning mothers.

Some days, I miss my little hostages.

~misfoijd

Bus Driving Has Screwed Me Up

Right now, I'm working as a realtor's assistant on the north side of Oklahoma City. Been working for a goofy fellow (Boss) who is practically family for the last month or so. Boss hired me when he realized how much he disliked paperwork & paper cuts. It's suppose to be a summer gig, but I need this to pan out for the sake of your children (and my spine).

++A Bit From a Recent Chat++

Boss: Guess what! ^-^

Me: Canada.  -_-

B: .......   o_o

M: What, sir?  -_-

B: .... What?  o_o

M: You said 'Guess what.'  -_-

B: Canada?  o_-

M: It's my auto response for when the kids on my bus say 'guess what?' ^_^

B: Now I can't remember what I was saying & you're not on a bus.  -_-

~misfoijd

Ivy League

Today is a special day. I got to tote home awesomeness.

This summer I have been working for a realtor in NW Oklahoma City. Usually, I do desk work, make copies, and mooch free lunches. I would like to buy but A) he no likes my taste in food & B) I can barely afford gas.

Afternoon comes around and Boss has to go let repairmen in a house. After a bit, I get a call asking if I'd drop his laptop off because he wouldn't be able to make it make to the office. No biggie.

After a HOT 107 degree drive in a car with no a/c, I arrive at the house sweaty and sticky. Tossing the laptop in his suv, I trod in the living room where I was greeted by an enormous ivy that strung around their living room. Boss saw my gawking and offered the ivy to me.

O_O => XD

YES!!

Ivy's new home!

I wish I had thought to take a picture of it while it was there. This ivy had to be coiled up like an extension cord and filled both arms. It wrapped around the living room.

God-ma's Wooden Utensils have company now.

Now the plant resides at my house. It had to be woven together in places. But the longer sections were looped over a compression curtain rod that spans the entry way to the kitchen.

I wonder what my husband will say when he gets home.

Dio (white dog) is contently clueless. Sarge (black dog) doesn't care.

**UPDATE** Husband woke me from a deep sleep to tell me how cool it was. 'That's nice hun....zzzzzzzz'

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